刚才俏姐给我打电话，哭着说妈妈过去了。我强忍着泪水，不知道该说些什么好。憋了一分钟，我说，姐，只要你需要我随时会在你身边。俏姐还是哭，傻孩子，咱们在一起的日子早就过去了，对你来说现在的我已经太风尘了。我只后悔当初妈妈在的时候我没有好好照顾她，总是让她为我操心。我后悔小小年纪就退学跑到北京闯荡而没有留在妈妈的身边。我有过这么多美好的想法，我要带妈妈去旅游，我要挣钱给妈妈买宝马，我要带妈妈吃烧烤，我要给妈妈买花。可是她连机会都没给过我就一个人走了。俏姐只是一个劲的哭，我不知道怎样安慰她。

我咬着自己的手不让自己哭出声音。我小的时候爸爸总是不在家，可以说我是妈妈和阿姨一起带大的。阿姨才刚刚42岁啊。我还记得我小学的时候，我和俏姐刚刚在一起，阿姨也并不反对，倒是常常带着我们两个一起去游乐场，一起去吃麦当劳。我还记得我和俏姐坐在车子的后座，互相依偎着睡着的样子，还有醒来后我们身上的一件大大的衣服。那时我们才只是小学生啊。我还记得我和俏姐玩游戏时阿姨脸上和蔼的笑容。我永远都不会忘记您。

现在这一切都没有了。阿姨走了。永远的走了。上次回去的时候阿姨还是好好的，太快了。快的我没有办法接受。现在我的脑海中一直浮现着阿姨的音容笑貌。

为什么上帝一定要带走这么好的一个人？？你知道么，我恨你。又一次，你让我经历了死亡，你让我承受生与死的悲痛。我恨你夺走了这么多我在乎的东西。我恨你对我这么不公平。为什么你一个人就决定了我们所有人的命运？为什么你一个人就决定了每一个人的生死？为什么你一个人就让我们每个人都生活在生命的枷锁中？

俏姐才18岁。今后她的日子怎么过？

阿姨，请您一路走好。在天堂里您要过的开开心心的。我知道您走的时候一定很不舍。请您不要为我们担心。我和李俏会一直好好的。您什么时候想我们了，感到孤单了，就回来看看我们。我们都长大了，不会害怕了。阿姨您放心，有我在，我不会让李俏再受伤害。真的对不起，我没有办法参加您的葬礼了。我回去的时候一定会去看您。

阿姨，一路走好。

Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, and have not love, I am become as sounding brass, or a tinkling cymbal.

And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries, and all knowledge; and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, and have not love, I am nothing.

And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, and have not love, it profiteth me nothing.

Love suffereth long, and is kind; love envieth not; love vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up,

Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil;

Rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth;

Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things.

Love never faileth: but whether there be prophecies, they shall fail; whether there be tongues, they shall cease; whether there be knowledge, it shall vanish away.

For we know in part, and we prophesy in part.

But when that which is perfect is come, then that which is in part shall be done away.

When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.

For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known.

And now abideth faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love.

You are from ash and dust
Ash to ash，dust to dust
In the name of the Father，the Son，and the Holy Spirits
Amen ...